It's been a really weird day today. I have been going back and forth with life ideas and issues today. Things have been going in a depression way and hopeful way. I've been experiencing so many different difficult moods lately I don't know what to think. I just really feel... confused about what path to take in life. I have one side of my life telling me that the doors may be closed for me, and the other is telling me that there is doors open up for me to take. It's just been one thing after another to decide what road to take in life.
For those of you that were told from my editor I would return, he was not lying. I just ran into a few snags in the beginning of the new year. They seemed all a little too harmless, but things added up and in the end hit me hard. In the end, everything ended up with my Grandmother dying without me knowing in the middle of January. That and over the holidays I just came to the realization that families in General seem to focus more in the center right of the lies then anything else. I find that seeing the people I grew up with as a child were not the same people I grew up to see now. I see the masks in what they hide behind, and the lies the spill out through their teeth. They still think I am a happy, stupid, gullible kid they can be rest assured of that they can get away with everything. However, I have grown and have the ability to look and see with insight and knowledge over the past 25 years to know when you lie to someone or trying to be someone different, you just stand out more. And that in a sense got me ticked off and made me stop for a little bit in December and January.
Since then, I have been learning a little bit more about my program and how to use it to its full potential in order for me to become a better comic artist. I still have my dreams to fulfill and I hope to get back on track to serving you all more OGGA. HOPEFULLY, if I can make it (due to my internship) I will be able to post a lot of things that I said I would do. Mainly change up the site and times that I post the comic. Again, this sabatical has got me in a slump as of late, and I want to get out of it asap.
Something should be up soon this week
by Panda Pete on 12/11/2011 at 12:41 pmI am going to post something this week. Hopefully this will help get everything for me to get back on track soon. I'll elaborate on this more when I post the page but I sometimes feel like my new job is a very communist system when it comes to the Internet. I cannot access anything on the internet, let alone news articles around the world to keep myself updated. It's that bad around here.
Also, I haven't forgotten the few who donated to me within the last few months. You will soon be receiving a special gift from yours truly very soon for your generous donation, so expect it later this week!
We just might make it but there are some problems on my part…
by Panda Pete on 11/07/2011 at 10:29 pmThere is a light at the end of the tunnel and I am still aiming for that spot to start uploading again in the middle of November when I have the time to be making images. There is just a few minor things that have me tied to a tree right as of now.
1. I have a volunteer/Internship no profit position at the moment and that is going to cause some inconveniences, I may even have to start posting only one comic per week, but we will see if that comes to fruition.
2. I cannot access my deviant art and my account at deviantart.com any more. My new job has me on site 24/7 and in the process of this I cannot access certain sites and deviant art is one of them sadly. I have asked about this problem and the answer was a simple "we have blocked it out due to the content on that site." Which I can understand, Deviantart is pretty liberal with their... artwork for the most part, and as of right now I cannot pay for my own internet due to funds being low and just enough to survive on for a whole year on necessities.
3. The stupid site I ordered an inexpensive tool from has not come as of yet. Why? Because its arriving on a boat from china. (I really think that boat sunk!) I don't really want to say the name of the tool I orderd because if I mention it here, I may get a few emotional vampires from home on me because I have family that come to my site often, and I bought this item on my Birthday as a gift to myself about more then a month ago on the 4th of October. Especially with me not having a paying job as of right now.
So long story short, Panda Pete has been put on hold, OGGA is resuming once again and I am in the midst of a few problems that is mentioned above. So expect a page hopefully in the middle of November people. We are not pulling an Abstract Gender on you, we promise.
Oh and I forgot to mention! We may be doing something later in the year of 2012. It's really going to depend at the end of November so cross your fingers that it comes through! It may be the difference between a dream come true to a dream put on hold for another year. We will have to see. Wish us luck that our messenger comes through! What is it? You really want to know what it is? Maybe, I'll say something, if a lot of people are interested, but Meh, I don't tell my dreams to just about everyone out there unless people really want to know ^-^ Later!
One Girl Guy Army got put on hold due to my life being put on hold
by Panda Pete on 10/29/2011 at 11:42 amLong story short, I had plans for the next year this September to build on my future. However, because a monkey wrench was thrown in the machine, I needed to find a job to gain experience and that is the reason I have not really been back to the comic due to finding a job. Well, luckily I may have found something and spending close to a month or so searching has paid off. I need to go for an Interview next week and hopefully we can continue on One Girl Guy Army soon. I am not going to push myself if something comes up, but I need to take some time to get used to a new place and a new setting at this new job. I will be a long way from my home here in the west coast and going to a new state will be a different setting, but hey I need to get started somewhere in this world no matter where it is. One Girl Guy army is not finished and will not be canceled. I as the artist need to put my foot into the door of the world to help support myself to continue to work on One Girl Guy Army since no one else will support me right now. Mainly because I really think I need to grow more as a person and as an artist for people to accept me more, at least that is what I believe. Hopefully sometime in mid November I will be back with something, but again I am not pushing myself. Life has thrown a huge stone in my path and I just need a different way of getting around it, so it will keep me thinking and developing at the same time.
Again, I apologize about the wait but I need to get everything straight and set in my life before I continue forward with the comic once again. I need to eat and support myself to continue on, and no one seems to be giving donations at the site because it must still be hard for people like you right now in life who reads the comic as well. Something needs to be done, so I need to get out there and accomplish just that. I hope to be back in November, but I cannot make any promises until I am sure of myself.
Panda Pete was mentioning in a previous post how my computer had a major malfunction. It turned out that the logic board on my Macbook pro had fried, with no prior warning. Understandably this was...irritating. I had already had another Macbook pro go on the fritz about 2 years ago, its graphics chip busted. At the time, Apple told me it would cost around 1200 to repair, since the chip is built into the logic board. Since that is almost the cost of a brand new Macbook pro, I decided to borrow another one from a relative that wasn't using it. This is the one that broke last week.
I thought, when I took it in, I would get the same kind of price estimate. You can google "Macbook pro logic board", and come up with prices that are about the same. Still, I needed a computer, so I thought there was nothing to lose by taking it in. After they took a look at it, they gave me a flat rate of 310, including repairs, labor, the works. A lot better than what I was expecting, especially since it wasn't under warranty anymore. Then I got curious. If this computer was 310 for a complete repair, including replacing the logic board, would the same be true of my other computer? They were about the same generation.
So later that same day, I took it in. They looked it over, and confirmed the graphics chip failure. They then told me, "Nvidia ended up reporting a high failure rate with their chips one year, and it looks like this computer has one of those chips. So we're gonna repair your computer, no cost to you. It's free."
I've never been so happy something broke in my life.


